20130814

not that it's worth much -- the faith of a fallen follower isn't worth much of anything -- but i said a prayer for you.

20130806

sleep is elusive.

it's 1am, i've eaten ice cream and sausage and chicken and jalapenos and chips and whatever else i felt like eating today. the race is over.

waiting for sleep...............

20130802

I don't belong here.  Maybe I never did.

I don't regret having a child, but wonder if, in my search for normalcy, I've done her a huge disservice. 

My presence here feels like a double take, like fading star trails in the morning sun.  

The worst thing now is how easily I can feel who I've been before, before I was me, whoever that is.  How they press on me!  I can feel the influences of those other souls in the inspirations I am receptive to, and I will soon join those poor souls. 

Will anyone remember me?  It is a curious thing how people can more readily recall the past than the present.  I feel this is my fate.  Maybe I'm just being optimistic.  Maybe it's hubris.  

Maybe my fondest wish is to leave a few unfinished songs around.. maybe someone who can keep their feet on the ground can finish them, make them popular, make them poignant.

Even one.

20130731

as july seeps away and i look for rhymes to complete a verse i realize my disconnection is complete.

also can't figure out how to segue into this refrain. as usual.

up. reading. and listening.

looking for flights to austin. have a ticket at the will call for me for the show. will i call? who knows.