20200317

20200317

20200317

well, it's st patrick's day, and what a strange one it is.

dealing with what appears to be a looming nationwide shutdown, and under such bizarre circumstances, and no one around me seems nearly as agitated by it.

i would have really sucked on the battlefield, i guess.

i'm not even sure if there's better news, on the better news front, but i'm still here at my desk until someone wisens up. or i just say fuck yall i'm out.

20200316

20200316

20200316

what a difference two weeks makes, amirite?

i am now just trying to manage my anxiety, having come back from a hastily thrown together spring break in NOLA to a complete shutdown/lockdown back home.

i have probably(definitely) read way too much on this epidemic, and managed the absolutely scare the shit out of myself going on a full week.

i *did* call this shit. i didn't even want to go anywhere last week, dealing with the family disappointment of "no disney", only to find myself talked into something else.

but it's fine. everyone had a great time.

and yet, we're home, and we're gonna *be* home for a long time i think. unless i already have it. /shrug

we are bunkered down and hunkered down and fairly safe and well provisioned even. and i know full well all i need is some RPG time to avoid cabin fever. my brain is tailor made for idle sedation.

anxiety is absolutely wrecking to your immune system i read, so hopefully i can start tempering my fear soon and finding my inner courage.

i think i'm seriously considering a blackout of reddit and drudgereport and other associated sites for a few days, just to try and bring the keel of my ship back level again.

maybe i'll need to start writing some more of these little entries as we go, so that the next adventurer can perchance get some achievement points from them along the way.

:)

20200306

20200305

20200305

I sit in a chair reflecting back upon my life
And I have so much yet to learn
and so much yet to see and do

It's love that holds it all together
I just had to let you know
That it's love that's holding back the weather
And the same will let it go

I sit on the beach feeling the wind feeling your hand in all
There's a ship on the ocean
And I can't decide if I like it

It's love that holds it all together
I just had to let you know
That it's love that's holding back the weather
And the same will let it go

It's love that holds it all together
I just had to let you know
That it's love that's holding back the weather
And the same will let it go

It's love that holds it all together
I just had to let you know
That it's love that's holding back the weather
And the same will let it go