20110714

thank you for the kind words
part of me, this poetry is shared only for you (and others)
a back seat rendezvous
part of me wants to be part of you
the prophecy sees right through, below
promise me he'll never know
but i knew
i watched it all
unfolding and tearing and crying and swearing alone
please understand the pursuer is sad and mistaken
she's thrown it away for a year and a day with a fool (that's you)
wished it were like it used to be, when we could just sneak away
those promises got in the way, well played
thank you for the kind words
open and honest as long as the pawn's in control (oh no)
you never meant to hurt me
you knew not to wound your prey
wished things were different before i was lifted away
carried away

20110711

i'm taking a few days off from posting. i have no air conditioning... there's a really long story there, but it's not worth telling on here.

i'm back at work after taking a week off and my kiddo is back from her trip with the in-laws. they can all rest easier and drift back into the shadows as i continue to raise her. until the next vacay! christ.

20110708

Appetite for sapping life
Sodomy fools honesty
Inert gas is thinner past
The distance of a chance
Still now, free will allowed
Lesser than a blessed man
To overcome the slower young
And discover he doesn't love her
Laugh it off, for after all
We're better off without her

20110707

like a spade without a stem, a heart turned upside-down on him
always doing as he was told, honorably discharged, too old
to figure out the figure needed, cause and effect the king unseated
a many heir had come to claim, and on her back she would remain
capricious, much like a noble's whim, clamoring to sink or swim
like a spade without a stem, a heart turned upside-down on him

20110706

another run this morning, although it wasn't until 10am, which.. in summer terms, is way, way too late. it was a real burner and i am kinda out of it. i got gas and mexican, and am now back at the house, determined to do not much of anything.

a/c people coming tomorrow.

i remarked that i only have escapes and not experiences. i think it's a fairly valid assessment of my life.

20110705

relaxed and essentially carefree.

ran this morning, read, played xbox, guitar, fixed a broken burner on my range, went to kroger, napped, and grilled chicken i had marinated in tequila lime all day.

vacuumed out the drip pan in the attic and called the warranty people. i'm not letting it bother me today.

kiddo is doing okay on her vacation, although the only way i get to hear a status report is to initiate it myself.

20110704

yeah, happy fourth. whatever. finished up some song lyrics that have been rattling around upstairs, played tales of vesperia a bunch on xbox, started a new book, and ran this afternoon after the rains cooled it off.

no a/c still.. but it's not unbearable.

20110703

today i realized my a/c situation is not fixed. as in there is a puddle on my ceiling, just outside my guest bathroom. i went to lowe's and bought a new filter, a wet vac, and some other crap to try and get it under control. it's not under control. i just ended up turning it off.

i had an invite to a friend's house for a cookout so i went over there and had an okay time. i'm so allergic to cats, it didn't long before my eyes wanted to eject from their sockets. no alcohol for me, only water.. no single women (as if). i can't lose weight cutting everything out of my life, but i'll keep plugging away. i left about 11 and came home.

20110702

Finally got a run in yesterday. Rerecorded one of my old songs and it sounds much better. I have a project on my hands, heh.

My mood was really black for most of this week.. no exercise plus the thought of my child away for a week.. sorry about that, readers.. whoMever you aren't.

Haven't prayed for much of anything but I couldn't help but ask for her safety this week. Old habits die hard. She's probably on the road to the airport as I write this. My ex is moving in with her bf and tells me my consent is not required because he's a roommate. Not sure if I should talk to my atty or not, but I feel sorta helpless there.

20110701

Final tethers cut
Nature's loving slut
Central to the cause
Simply at a loss
Driven by an urge
Pen the greatest dirge
Sacrificial lamb
All of it a scam