fuck i just woke up
also: i love the holidays
also also: finished up oblivion
sad that i can sum up my life in terms of games...
also my brain is out to get me. i lifted a lot yesterday and tried to keep my food intake down.... even locked my own doors inside the house. still sleepwalked into the kitchen for more. i need a therapist.
oh look http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Night_eating_syndrome
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up at 9.
to the park.
church at 10:30. threatened with hell.
so depressed i just want to call it at this point... but
lunch at 11:30. newk's favorite salad.
off to the big city park. paddle boats. playground.
over to the zoo.
dinner at 5:00. indian. too much food.
back for nfl and laundry and books and bed.
9:30 and my team is losing.
i had a protein shake (no milk).
to the park.
church at 10:30. threatened with hell.
so depressed i just want to call it at this point... but
lunch at 11:30. newk's favorite salad.
off to the big city park. paddle boats. playground.
over to the zoo.
dinner at 5:00. indian. too much food.
back for nfl and laundry and books and bed.
9:30 and my team is losing.
i had a protein shake (no milk).
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i once found a girl who wasn't there
with knowing eyes and see through hair
in promenade through visions past
from a world that wasn't there
eleven years ago today
with plans to go she promised to stay
but couldn't take my breath away
with a kiss that wasn't there
encouraged anew to set apart
to replace an ending that wouldn't start
complacent dreams are all that's left
of a fate that wasn't there
and all aflutter from staring down
in restless slumber and thoughts aloud
the life and love she never found
from a man who wasn't there
20 mi bike, yard work, etc
with knowing eyes and see through hair
in promenade through visions past
from a world that wasn't there
eleven years ago today
with plans to go she promised to stay
but couldn't take my breath away
with a kiss that wasn't there
encouraged anew to set apart
to replace an ending that wouldn't start
complacent dreams are all that's left
of a fate that wasn't there
and all aflutter from staring down
in restless slumber and thoughts aloud
the life and love she never found
from a man who wasn't there
20 mi bike, yard work, etc
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another 10 miles on the bike this morning, then a bunch more yard work. i'm beat.
bitchface showed up with douchenozzle to drop off kiddo. he waved. fuck him.
lunch: newk's favorite salad
dinner: chicken and protein shake
enjoyed the park but it was really windy.
and then the storm hit.
the saints won, so that's good. and alabama lost, also good.
kiddo wants to play, so i'm out.
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10pm. a sudden rush of blood to the head. lightheadedness and heart racing. arms numb. if i'm out, it's been fun. going to lie in bed and wonder what i did wrong, and marvel at what i did right.
bitchface showed up with douchenozzle to drop off kiddo. he waved. fuck him.
lunch: newk's favorite salad
dinner: chicken and protein shake
enjoyed the park but it was really windy.
and then the storm hit.
the saints won, so that's good. and alabama lost, also good.
kiddo wants to play, so i'm out.
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10pm. a sudden rush of blood to the head. lightheadedness and heart racing. arms numb. if i'm out, it's been fun. going to lie in bed and wonder what i did wrong, and marvel at what i did right.
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