20150804

america is officially an orwellian dystopia come to life.

anything you say can and will be used against you in the court of public opinion.

even, perhaps especially, if you uttered it years or decades ago.

if i had the means, i'd leave.

20150803

watched "heaven adores you" tonight and cried multiple times, just like i knew i would.

the guitar is out again for the first time in awhile, and chords are coming, but seriously what's the point?

i'm sitting here hoarding somewhat passable music, like a dragon collecting mismatched socks.

until i play a song live, in front of people, which i may never do, i don't see what i'm doing here.

20150803

life is so fucking cruel.

must i watch all my heroes die?

and then myself? the march walks all over me.

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aaaaaand my new dryer broke.

20150729-2

Terrible bout of insomnia. Fuuuuck. Hope everyone in my world is okay, and this isn't prophetic.

20150729

been a week. still around and seemingly back to form.

20150721

fucking heart probs since sunday. probably my fault. this is maddening. general malaise, neck probs, etc.

20150719

facebook: other peoples' happy endings.

20150710

nothing is working but the water.

screamed until i was hoarse.

i give up.

20150704

customary listen complete.



today was lonely.

coffeed up, wrenched back, did the usual, dressed out, rode the bike, got wet, came home, ate, played euro truck simulator 2, played witcher 3, played euro truck simulator 2, played witcher 3, played euro truck simulator 2, played witcher 3, ate, played euro truck simulator 2, played witcher 3, played euro truck simulator 2, played witcher 3, ate, etc.

interspersed with irc, facebook, and reddit.

all in all, a completely selfish diversion from reality.

hopefully kiddo saw some fireworks at least.

20150701

THIS SONG IS STUCK IN MY HEAD.

IT'S JUST A GUY PLAYING BASS AND A DRUMMER. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE. IT'S SOOOOO GOOD.