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Tears in the clouds are usually rain

But not these tears in these clouds on this day

For second by second, mile by mile

He’s taken further and further away from her smile

His poem a puddle, his screen turned a mess

And nothing to stem it, no one to caress

Sweet nothings have bloomed, he now feels the thorns

The pain of love’s longing, of two hearts being torn

Apart from each other, each moment an age

Wrapped up in the truths of each promise they’d made

- flight 2 -

Yet the tone of this poem, of one left behind

Doesn’t quite match the author’s designs

See the time he had spent, considering love

Only served to remind of him of the one up above

So as far as he flew, as high as he’d get

The Lord looks o’er them both, flying higher yet

Their connection He’d forged long before time

And time cannot threaten what the lord has designed.

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In an airplane aloft, in seats ever cramped

He ventures along, this brand new man

Horizons of blues and clouds of cream

Brings ever closer the girl of his dreams

They’ve fought through so much, for year after year

Each other they’ve won, a reward sincere

He peers out and on, skies dancing in place

But nothing compares to the lines of her face

They’d waited so long, their patience held true

Forever on “us” would mean me and you.

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I am the happiest man on earth. I finally found my person. :)

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and just like that, i realized that i could be happy again.

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it's hitting me hard today.

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cornell singing a song derived from a johnny cash poem. two lost, giant, kindred spirits. i am invisible, but i've soaked up these lost voices so many times that i'm inured to it. i can't name a single living artist that moves me like these tragic souls can. so why am i still here?

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Even in his later years, even when he could no longer go, Flynn would whine every single time I came back from a run, because I used to take him on long walks to cooldown post-run. I would get irritated at him for making noise, when all he was trying to do was spend time with me.

And now, I return to silence.

I guess for posterity sake, I also wanted to post this drawing I made on a whiteboard at work, a whiteboard no longer even in my office, that I drew almost 15 years ago. It’s flynn of course, and my coworkers elected to leave his memory in place, even after I’d moved offices.

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lost my dog of over 18 years yesterday. i was there when he breathed his final breath. i gave him a kiss, but had no words of wisdom to impart. we've already said everything that could be said to each other.

“Not the least hard thing to bear when they go from us, these quiet friends, is that they carry away with them so many years of our own lives. Yet, if they find warmth therein, who would grudge them those years that they have so guarded? Nothing else of us can they take to lie upon with outstretched paws and chin pressed to the ground; and, whatever they take, be sure they have deserved.”― John Galsworthy

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it all started today.

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