20130429

fuck. i was wrong. i think. i don't know. who knows. she was right. they're always right.

20130427

Finally got the rejection I was searching for, and of course, it was bittersweet. In monosyllabic punctuated terms, this subpar mate judged me as inferior, and I allowed it to get to me.. but only momentarily.

I have many flaws but I accept them for what they are. Only recently have I stopped focusing on them, and instead, I've started promoting the positive qualities of me. I will graciously accept rejection from a vapid woman, and continue to seek out opportunities for myself, while maintaining the premise that life is not meant to be lived self-centered, but self-aware.

20130426

this may (i'm not sure) be the first time i've ever posted a pic on this blog. probably won't be the last.. anyway, i don't really recognize myself here, but i looked great today. ran with my kid, and managed to find my footing after a disastrous week.



lunch and dinner: chicken and cottage cheese

20130424

two salads, one fried one grilled, standard fare.

benching tonight after a three hour nap.

my boss is leaving in a month. my personal life was just starting to stabilize.. hopefully my professional life doesn't tumble out of control. the elusive balance of life.

20130421

Headed home, windows down, 96X up (yep it's back), with my dog leaning out the window and my kiddo singing behind me. what a weekend. life is almost perfect. almost..

was that really an hour long conversation? wow. best joke of the night

homecoming queen? more like dairy queen.

20130420

friendzoned. classic me.

lunch: a bit of chicken
dinner: um oh right protein shake

also i biked. i'm kinda depressed i dropped the ball on this one.

20130419

first date in three years. we ran a boston charity run and went to an after party .. afterwards.

she ended up talking to her old friend for an hour, and essentially ignoring me. it hurt but this was still an amazingly GOOD occurrence in my post-divorce life.

lunch: steak and veggies
dinner: two sliders, salad, two beers (fat tire)

20130416

lunch: grilled chicken salad (bar)
dinner: chicken and cottage cheese

finality. i'm having trouble accepting it... it's a strange thing.

20130415

lunch: chicken/cottage cheese
dinner: newks favorite salad

havent heard anything today, maybe the whole thing was in my head. maybe she's not cool with my religion. either way, it's a fucking monday.

good grief at this shit in boston at the marathon.. fucking crazy people in this world. :(

20130414

weirdest weekend ever. ruined my chances with a girl. and then got her number.

lunch: chicken and cottage cheese
dinner: beef fajitas at mi pueblo

so full.