20141212

the song of the day, after a week of ups and downs

20141209

i understand what i am still too proud to mention .. to you.

20141204

Back up the scale, feeling like fail

20121203

still here! amazing, i know.

every time i take my kid to chik fil'a, i take a fry for myself. in this way, she learns about taxation and also i receive a fry.

20141001

well, i ran yesterday, for the first time in over a week. it was a good run, but then i ate way more food than i've eaten in over a week to compensate.

i have not yet, even after 37 years on this earth, learned how hunger works on any real level. i simply have no self control. i finished off a full jar of peanut butter. and before that, and entire package of dark chocolate morsels.

better luck next life.

20140923

well i'm still here. went to the minor med with kiddo, then after receiving a refund (when does that ever happen in medicine?!) went over to the ER. sister took kiddo, brother sat with me, parents were never told.... until today. my mom was actually pretty happy with the outcome: i guess everything is positive, although i'm not sure if i'm 100% or not. i don't think i am. i need some major sleep.

20140922

So it's just a few minutes after midnight, and I've had a very strange feeling day.  I woke up with double vision after what feels like a week of neck wonkiness.  Although the screwdriver in my back feeling is gone, it was replaced with severe confusion, sensitivity to light, and aforementioned double vision.  Even bitchface commented on it when she dropped m off.  I am a professional hypochondriac and worrywart so I'm trying my damnedest to remain calm, but my symptoms point to some form of encephalitis, potentially West Nile.  Thing is,!i haven't had a headache yet on this ride, so it could very well be too much fucking gaming, lack of sleep and my usual depression.  Will I finally go find a doctor?  I would right now if it weren't in the middle of the night.  We'll see tomorrow morning.  At least I still appear to be remotely cognizant in the written word.  I ate sparingly, eventually settling on tater tots, coffee at 5pm, and some oatmeal at 9pm.  I'm not even remotely tired.  At least the steelers won.

20140916

lunch: half chicken, rice, house salad
dinner: chicken, tots, cc
(played ball with kiddo)
later: i dunno

20140915

mondays suck. back to work.

lunch: don pollo .. nasty, too much cheese, feeling fat, etc
played ball with kiddo
rearranged bed, removed frame
dinner: banana+chocolate, and also tuna bowl
later: chicken and cc

20140914

(choir + church + brunch) ... = choirunch?
lunch: turkey, cranberry, feta salad
(run)
dinner: makeshift chicken salad at parents
(wow..)

1AM :/ fuck