20161231

1992 was a great year. this is one of my favorite songs from that year, and also, one of my favorites, well, ever.

the pre-chorus arpeggiated singdown still gives me chills every time.



also the a cappella breakdown. almost brought me to tears. i love music that can pull emotion out of me. maybe i'm gay. i certainly have a woman's taste in music. in some ways, at least.

2016? maybe not a great year. is age just a number? who can say.

i still look good, at least my face. but i'm a museum piece. untouched and untouchable.

will someone dust me off and take me off display this year?

20161222

got my birthday burrito, two days late. carne asada, ate it on the drive home.

it was just fine.

did up the crockpot with some ground bison soup, took a nap and now i'm watching charlie brown christmas and brimming with tears.

my kid is not going to be with me for christmas this year, so a bit of a dry run.

my sister got me some pike place roast for my birthday and it just straight up lit my ass up. i've been on the coffee teet for months, but apparently i wasn't prepared for a "medium" roast.

how did i go from a linus childhood to a charlie brown adulthood?

:(

20161218

good lord i'm about to be 40. ain't that a bitch

20161027

it is kinda depressing when i hear a musician who manages to capture, crystalize, and encapsulate the emotion of pain better than me.

it's amazing and uplifting and wonderful to hear, mind you. maybe the catalyst of pain is simply delivered better by a female voice than a man.



simply jaw-droppingly beautiful. haunting.

20160811

kiddo's back in school. today's loves: chicken wings and basslines.

20160719

everything in cycles. still gives me goosebumps.

20160712

self realization: i may have a bit of an addictive or obsessive personality.
case in point: over the years, i have a sauron-like gaze with certain artists.

the listing below: the approximate age when each artist first "spoke" to me.
(as best as I can recall)

age	band(s)
11	samantha fox, george michael, tears for fears
12	ac/dc, machine head
13	guns n' roses
14	soundgarden
15	jeff buckley
16	pantera, stone temple pilots
17	monk, coltrane
18	testament
19	311, ice cube, d.o.c.
20	led zeppelin, megadeth
21	tool, manson, nine inch nails
22	bjork, stevie wonder
23	black sabbath
24	weezer
25	fiona apple
26	beatles
28	old metallica, slayer
30	strapping young lad, opeth
31	rollins band
32	burzum, immortal
33	drudkh
34	elliott smith
36	vektor
38	pink floyd

obviously, these are my favorite musicians.

my current obsession is the smiths. not sure if they'll make the cut.

20160711

just fantastic, from start to finish.

20160608

Heaven sent the promised land, Looks alright from where I stand
'Cause I'm the man on the outside looking in

Waiting on the first step, Show where the key is kept
Point me down the right line because it's time

To let me in from the cold, Turn my lead into gold
'Cause there's chill wind blowing in my soul
And I think I'm growing old

20160604

what am i doing today? so far, not much, other than coffee and ps4. although i did run a 5k last night, and did really well pace-wise.

am i on the upswing? who knows. life is a treadmill, but the speed is not under your control.