gaining and losing
foot in the quick
never fitting into myself
trapped on the edge
weight drags me down
grasping for dead air
choking on the sand
worn out, dried up
denying myself the truth
regret is my sustenance
living for yesterday
one day at a time
as the world spins backwards
the mold breaks again
extremes of ugliness
fuck you and your self-esteem
i was winnowing away years ago
this is my masterpiece
let the living be duped
