20131012

still here. ran my headache off miraculously and took the dog on a walk. came back, made some stuff in the crockpot.

the rain hit, did my usual, watched some crap on xbox, went to target and bought frames. finished my vinyl project, i guess.. although i bought two extra frames so i may put two more albums in there. also bought two more albums on amazon.

probably skipping dinner. kiddo's back tomorrow..

house is a wreck.

life is a wreck.

what else is new

20131011

came home to run. can't. had chicken. depression is unsettling.

must refocus.

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crying? seriously?

20131005

at least i wasn't totally useless today. still needs a name. assuming i ever let anyone listen to it.

20131003

bitchface remarried. why is this bothering me? three years of solitude? when am i going to find hope? depression and parenthood have crushed me.

am i going to let her win?

am i ever going to get laid again for chrissakes?

i can't talk to even the simplest woman in person.

this isn't a woe is me post, this is me honestly curious if i have a breaking point.

this place is a wreck. i have all kinds of broken things in this house, but me worst of all. i'm going to end up ruining my daughter with this.

is this the life i deserve? perhaps so.

three years is a long time in your thirties. and still i can't wake up from this nightmare.

20130921

a good day completely turned to shit.

lift. atm. car crash. open gym. corn maze. theft. run. family videos.



the sweetest way to die

20130919

dear god.

20130918

i really need to record this stupid song so i can move on to another one.

headache is absolutely killing me. excruciating is interesting adjective, as it always (?) precedes a word that essentially renders it redundant. or maybe that's just my blurry vision headache logic.

i've rediscovered the amazing music of the cardigans. her voice is like a warm blanket.

20130908

impromptu sleepover. eye doctor. summer festival. clothes shopping. sunday ticket. ac3 finished.

20130905

convinced myself to do chinups every break on this nfl game. wtf was i thinking?

another song done. plenty of words, plenty of music, no name.

20130902

heart pancakes.  denise austin.  car wash.  running.  yarnells.  wasp nest.  chin-ups.  horseshoes.  yard work.  happy labor day.