20110727

today is not about me. it's about my friend. and a good friend she is. happy birthday.

20110726

Another sad creation sullies forth
Flesh melded inharmoniously
Ceremony of clerical errors
Unsubstantiated grief
Crafted mind torn asunder
Every interaction poisonous
Fatal flaws surface at will
Just to die from exposure
A mindless afterthought
And it's getting worse

20110725

burning up on reentry
yet another launch consequence
fight or flight instinct kicks in
signal an abort to the tower
a death defying maneuver
arcing over the crowd assembled
applause wells up as expected
all except the intended target
crashed right into her after all

20110724

Why is this making me cry at 5:30 in the morning:

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered; Forgive them anyway. If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway. If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies; Succeed anyway. If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway. What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway. Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; It was never between you and them anyway.

20110723

for all those curious, i am now officially (even more of) a woman. kiddo spent last night at granny's and i got a 6 mile run in this morning. also had some guys come to fix my attic ladder. when i picked her up, we stopped by michael's (the craft store) on the way home, and bought (1) a face painting kit (2) glow in the dark stars for her room (3) kid paint.

we spent the remainder of the evening painting each other's faces. anyway, i loved michael's, and found so many things i was interested in that we are definitely going back, even if i'm the only guy i ever see in the place.

i am going to meet with a one night this week. i am turning donuts over a few topics in my head that i need to get off my chest with her. i can't believe she put her boyfriend on speakerphone to discuss our child's visitation, but i want to take a different tact with her now. it will probably explode in my face, but we'll see.

20110722

She puts him on the phone
Another sad manipulated drone
Experience is a better teacher
The only way to reach her
She only fights for control now
It's never been about her child
No choice but to soldier on
She'll stop caring before long

20110721

bleh.

20110720

division day.

20110719

a day in the life.

40 minutes on the phone with the ex at 7am. get wonderful kid up out of bed and to camp. she wrote me this incredible note on the ride in.

get to work. made the walk. two hour meeting with microsoft.

went home because power is out at work. had lunch and lifted weights because it's too damn hot to run, and wrote the following letter to my atty:

An issue has come up regarding visitation for my daughter. My ex-wife has moved in with her boyfriend at his home, and informed me that I have no recourse, since the wording of the paramour clause in our papers uses the term "guest". She is claiming he is her roommate, not a guest, even though they share a room/bed. I know that I am legally obligated to provide her with visitation, but is she correct in that I have no recourse? I do not want my daughter exposed to seeing her mother living in a home out of wedlock.

yeah. the best of times and the worst of times.

20110718

This space for rent
Out with the old ecstasy
Yourself through my eyes
Soar upward with singularity
A million million stars traverse
And refrain from falling over
Grown accustomed to comfort
Able to pretend to interact
Shun all the rest
Less than zero
Sold