"sucker punch" is coming together well, just needs a refrain to come to me. it'll come to me. it's about being so afraid of the future that you neglect today, and forget to live. it's upbeat.
wondering if my songwriting has become just another escape. is anything about me real? or am i just the sum total of my current pastimes?
it was way too hot to run this morning. it's going to be the hottest day of the year. sitting in my house doing bench press sets at 5:30 am. i've pushed everyone away. my child is gone all week, as her camp is done. so here i sit, quiet and patient, but afraid and hidden away.
"you seem to think i'm random, but i'm only psuedo-random. you would be exactly this way, were you seeded at the very same time and place."
