20111017

skipped breakfast
hot dog, banana and almond butter
almonds
egg muffins

today was a run day. went frontfoot strike on the first mile and now my calves are singing but i made it three. i would have preferred four but im pretty sure my legs would have exploded. i still need to get some vibrams.

20111016-2

lessee

three eggs (hard boiled) and three sausage links
almond butter and dark chocolate
more almond butter
hot dog and mixed veggies
balogna

20111016

verge of tears. good name for a song. it's been me all morning. ate too much this morning, fucked up my foot courtesy of a shovel yesterday, so i can't run. went to church (why i don't know), but it was overall a positive experience. i think i wanted to give thanks for getting back safely from my trip and for my presentation going well. i am by nature an indecisive person. it sucks, and i know i have to work on it. religion is the worst aspect of this. i listen to metal, and most of the time i consider myself agnostic. but sometimes the pendulum swings this way or that. i wish i had the luxury of a conviction of faith, but it has never happened. will it? who knows. eventually i should just decide.

i stare at the moms at church and wonder if i'd be happy with one of them. i stare at the women at the grocery store. i just look onward, do i see a future or am i sitting on the shore of a sea filled with nameless faces?

20111014

so let's see. two nightmares that i can remember, and i slept ate (peanut butter and almonds, at least i don't cheat while i'm sleep eating, as there was a thing of mac & cheese i made for kiddo in there, lol). nightmare 1 involved bitchface being fondled by some guy and i was helpless to stop him. nightmare 2 was a helicopter crashing in the street while i was talking to that same guy on the phone. great way to start my day!

few bites of banana
newk's ultimate salad (fantastic)

did well on my presentation i think. i'm enjoying today, listening to the beatles, waiting impatiently for my workout stuff to arrive. rewarded myself with a fat ass salad, and now i'll begrudgingly return to the nexus of work.

20111013

egg muffin
the other half of a can of chili (+ hot dog)
a bunch of random shit for dinner (but not too much)

i am scatterbrained today. completely scatterbrained.

20111012

no breakfast, two burgers (sans buns) for lunch
beef jerky
half a can of chili, sweet potato

i wanted to run but i got caught fixing someone else's fuckups at work and wasn't able to get out.

somehow i got snookered into giving some 10 minute update on my findings at the Friday morning leadership meeting. and they wonder why i don't want to participate. i'm never going on another business trip as long as i'm there.

went to one of my best friends (from high school) recitals. kiddo spent the evening with my sis. it was enjoyable. mostly enjoyable. the "elegiac trio" by arnold bax was especially pretty.

whelp, i did it. i ordered my squat cage.

Valor Athletics BD-7 Power Rack with Lat Pull

20111011

fuckin date almost looks like binary code.

one egg muffin
leftover bison stew with chicken
almond butter
spicy chicken, three sausage links, tomatoes and lettuce

deadlift: 135x5, 155x5, 155x5, 155x5
bench: 135x10, 145x10, 155x10 (i can go much higher i think, but not without a spotter)
pushup: 2x10
dumbbell tricep extension: 40x10, 40x10, 40x10
dumbbell seated isolation curl: 40x10, 40x10, 40x10
bicycles: lost count when my stomach started cramping, heh

20111010-2

two egg muffins
grilled chicken salad with bleu cheese
banana and almond butter
two bigass beef hotdogs (hebrew national) and saurkruat

i'm going to lift tonight. should be thrilling!

20111010

"mommy never plays with me. it's like i'm invisible."

20111009

emptied out the wheelbarrow this morning and cleaned out the gutters on the side of the house i'd missed a few weeks ago. took out the trash, fed the dog, and did some bench presses on my new setup. 135 lb feels much different with the olympic weights, perhaps because they're much farther out (perhaps because i wasn't lifting 135 lb on the janky weights from the 80s, heh). time to go grocery shopping with all the other pagans.

day 30(!):
eggs and sausage links
almond butter and dark chocolate
spicy bison stew (yeah! my own recipe)

good run, good lifts, good vent, good nfl games, good books, good grief, good night.