20111112

lift day.

egg muffins
hamburger salad
spicy beef stew

Barbell Deadlift:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
Barbell Bench Press:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
Barbell Shrug:
135 lb x 10 reps (+27 pts)
135 lb x 10 reps (+27 pts)
135 lb x 10 reps (+27 pts)
Pendlay Row:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
Seated Cable Row:
90 lb x 10 reps (+25 pts)
110 lb x 10 reps (+31 pts)
110 lb x 10 reps (+31 pts)
Standing Overhead Barbell Triceps Extension:
45 lb x 10 reps (+6 pts)
45 lb x 10 reps (+6 pts)
45 lb x 10 reps (+6 pts)
Standing Military Press:
45 lb x 10 reps (+20 pts)
65 lb x 5 reps (+26 pts)
65 lb x 5 reps (+26 pts)
65 lb x 5 reps (+26 pts)
65 lb x 5 reps (+26 pts)
65 lb x 5 reps (+26 pts)

20111111

run day.

two egg muffins
various meats and cheeses, banana, pb, protein powder
tuna salad and sweet potato

kiddo won a "high school musical" chapter book from a drawing at the library at school today. we get in the car and she asks me to turn the radio off.. so she can read. when we get home, she throws on some other clothes and sits quietly on the couch, reading her book. it's times like this when i am ... is honored the right word? ... to be her dad.

20111110

balogna, hot dog, cheese
protein shake with banana post-workout
club salad at jason's deli

beautiful full moon tonight.

lift day.

had to deal with more bitchface drama today. i send a christmas list to the former inlaws and sister-in-laws and ex replies with:

Why don't we go in on the doll together? Would it be acceptable to you to allow it to be opened at my family's, or are you going to make sure the most awesome gifts come from you/your family?

seriously. i think she's legally retarded. my reply, which i copied to her whole family:

I don't care who buys her what. Christmas is not an arms race. I was giving you and your family a chance to get some things first, because I *want* her to open the gift(s) she wants the most on Christmas morning... and the doll is at the top of that list. If it means I buy the doll and ship it to you guys, fine, just let me know. I am not interested in going in on the doll with you.

retarded.

20111109

monotony shouts idle threats across the bow of a ship buried at the bottom of the sea.
somewhere down below, a wish (or a promise) is scrawled and bottled away. safe. for now.

protein powder and coconut milk for breakfast
chicken salad with feta
a little bit of fish which was gross and then an amazing baked sweet potato

stomach is trying to revolt on me.

"When my girlfriend and I fight, I tighten the top to every jar and bottle in the house"
- passive-aggressive gold medalist

20111108

every day the counter resets. must remember this.

breakfast: two hard boiled eggs
roast beef rollups, banana, ab
muscle milk + coconut milk
steak

20111107-3

need to start logging my meals again..

one piece of balogna, one piece of cheese, one piece of bacon
homemade cobb salad (two eggs, bacon, feta cheese and salad mix)
pb
baked sweet potato.. finally done right. only took two hours

kiddo might have RLS. fantastic.

or i could stop freaking out and realize its growing pains coupled with dance class.

20111107

time folds inward toward itself
beckoning for tacit compliance
important dates draw near again
now turned meaningless forever
still they shall be silently observed
feigned reverence and custom aside
with the usual dignity and grandeur
past a sieve of unwavering resolve
each nightmare merely a reminder
of the inevitability of choice
and the consequences therein

20111105-2

some new PRs this morning!

Barbell Deadlift:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
Barbell Squat:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
lifting great this morning! all calf soreness from running yesterday is history.
Barbell Bench Press:
135 lb x 5 reps (+47 pts)
185 lb x 5 reps (+64 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
155 lb x 5 reps (+54 pts)
haha.. wasn't paying attention and racked 25s instead of 10s, and managed to bench 185. i blame pantera.
Pull-Up:
5 reps (+40 pts)
Wide-Grip Lat Pulldown:
70 lb x 10 reps (+18 pts)
90 lb x 10 reps (+24 pts)
90 lb x 10 reps (+24 pts)
Reverse Cable Curl:
70 lb x 10 reps (+14 pts)
70 lb x 10 reps (+14 pts)
70 lb x 10 reps (+14 pts)

20111105

i won't take up any more of your time.

The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you're a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds.

- Henry Rollins

20111104

live your fairy tale
on somebody else's unhappy ending
fill the void with new memories
stamp out the old ones at will
accuse deny and capitulate
the cornerstone of your acceptance
post new pictures, toss the others
whatever makes you feel better